whats the point!

so i decided there is no purpose to life... it is full of good and bad times, ups and downs, and beliefs & Disbeliefs. what i realized today is that we are just sad people on this planet that are hoping for us to be worth something... but we are not. we are not worth anything. we live then we die. thats it. i always like to believe that i am worth something more than just who and what i am now. that maybe there would be a happier place.

Through hope, brought me to the reality of this life i am living, is the most think i hope for is an end. i dont want to always have to grow. cant we just be happy with who we are and where we are at? maybe some of us do not grow. we just stay children in our heads. but if we dont grow we die. thats the way of life. natural selection. well my point is that i dont want to grow anymore. i am so fucked up that i cant stand it anymore. i am trying too hard to still be a nobody. nature is telling me that i do not belong here anymore.